Another One Bites The Dust

Not somebody but rather, a friendship. I've began to accept this as a norm. People come & people go. I can only send my best wishes from the bottom of my heart.

I 1st knew Jon when we were in secondary 2. He's my 1st male friend as my parents forbade me to have any when I was younger. I had a major crush on him probably due to that fact. Of course, he wasn't interested. I found out years later the reason why when he came out. By then, I had long lost interest & had my share of ex-boyfriends.

We can't be more different. He likes his fun. Frequent clubbing, drinking & at a later stage, even drugs like Ice. I was dismayed by his lifestyle choice but I never said anything. He didn't need to hear it from me. If I'm doing something I know is wrong, I won't accept it graciously when someone tries to talk me out of it either. Instead, I prayed that it is a phrase he'll grow out of. I don't know if he still does drugs but drinking is definitely a yes. I was worried when I saw him going down the path of an alcoholic, frequently drinking till he passed out by the roadside & waking the next morning to find his wallet & mobile phone gone from his pockets. I was the one who went to the Ubi police station to bail him out when in a drunken state, crashed his motorbike into a van which subsequently got his license terminated, a fine & a 5 year driving ban.

I cried when he left for Norway to be with his partner, even though I myself will leave for Perth a year down the road. 18 years is a long time. He got mad at me for not informing him that my number had been changed. Actually, I didn't realise it until J told me coz she tried messaging me & got a stranger instead. (Singtel recycled my number & gave it to someone else.) There're many people in my contact list that I don't keep in contact with & I left him out when I informed others of my number. I did give my friends my Aussie number but whatsapp was still pegged to my Sg number you see. So they needed to do the conversion.

Then I found out on FB that he's moving away from Oslo, Norway. When I asked him if he's returning to Sg, he said, "Close. Moving to ST." I can't think of a country with the initials ST & I couldn't get my answer online either. So I asked him. But I didn't get a reply while he continue replying to others.

In Buddhism there is a quote that goes, "It's the heart that is important." I guess it doesn't quite matter whether people wants to keep me in their lives or not. They will always have a place in my heart & my prayers will always go out to them. Be well, my friend. May you find the happiness you're searching for.