Wednesday, 4 May 2016

Still Water Runs Deep

This phrase was used to describe me by my colleague. That must be the best compliment anybody can pay me. Really appreciate it. This came about becoz she felt that I came across as a very simple, very innocent, very quiet girl. But underneath the exterior, I have so much depth to me. So thank you very much for such a generous compliment.

I don't know if I really am a person of depth. But the description of my exterior is pretty spot on. I've said many times that I'm socially awkward. People don't like to be around me becoz they feel uncomfortable. I often don't know how to reply to comments or have an appropriate response in conversations. They don't understand me so they prefer not being around me. This explains the many years of childhood literally friendless. It is the same thing still now, but probably to a lesser extend.

Those who stuck around often find that I'm actually pretty crazy & say the lamest things. But that side doesn't come out until much later. I don't open up easily I know. I guess that's something I'll live with for the rest of my life. Surprisingly, I'm alright with that. When I was younger, I'll give anything to be sociable, to always have the right thing to say. That's what age does to you, isn't it? Learning to accept & love yourself just the way you are.

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  1. Hello Jo,

    I stumbled upon your blog while researching on relocating to Australia. I am a 25 years old Singaporean and I am really looking to move to Australia in the next 5 years. I haven't been saving much despite working for 5 years due to frivolous spendings and holidays. However, this time I am determined to save up as much as I can, and work on my grand plan to move once a career opportunity comes along. I am an Analyst in HR by profession, and it is in no way a highly required skill in AU, so I am very dependent on my employer for a transfer to the AU office. There's still a long way to go, but I am really determined. I am inspired by your stories and I hope to keep in touch with you :)

    Thank you for writing this blog!

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    1. Hi! It's really good that you start planning now so you have ample time to get ready. Although the economy & hence job market is terrible at the moment, I sincerely believe just as what goes up must come down, what goes down will eventually come back up. Perhaps by the time you're ready to make the move, the economy will have picked up. Yeah, do keep in touch! :)

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