Friday, 19 August 2016
Wednesday, 17 August 2016
Being right is so subjective. In your mind, you're right. In my mind, I'm right. So who is truly right then?
You treat people with honesty & sincerity only to be taken for a fool. You know such people are aplenty. You know you shouldn't let it affect you.
At the same time, you know it is exactly becoz the world is full of cynics that it is all the more important that you remain true. For you can never change someone else, only yourself & the way you view the world. Becoz you know for a fact that it only takes 1 person to effect a change & that person has to be you.
Friday, 5 August 2016
But I was a quiet, awkward teenager. All I wanted was to be included. To be liked. To have friends. Even if they're not sincere.
If only I knew, that in this world, consumed by greed & violence, being popular is the least important thing of all.
If only I knew, that in the end, the only thing that really matters is kindness.
If only I knew, that even if it's not a big deal for you, it could mean the world to the person receiving your words or acts of kindness.
If only I knew. I would have started younger, creating a life of true value. If only I knew.
Saturday, 30 July 2016
Saturday, 2 July 2016
|I received my starter kit several days later & have been playing around with it. I made a further "upgrade" to an ultrasonic diffuser based on the knowledge that heat destroys the beneficial attributes of the oils.|
|My collection thus far. Some of the oils are really expensive at over $100 for a 5 mls bottle. Some of the common oils like citrus oils are just over $10 for a 15 mls bottle. So I'm going to have to order a bit each month. I've made a doggy breath spray, doggy odour spray, deodorant spray & a perfume roll on. The perfume roll on is my favourite. I wear it every day.|
|I also made some lip balm but I feel that it is too hard. Perhaps I'll half the amount of beewax from the recipe next time.|
|DIY car freshener.|
|Moisturising foot soak.|
|Made just this morning, toothpaste. At the moment it's more of a dry paste than a liquid paste due to the presence of coconut oil.|
Tuesday, 7 June 2016
The 2nd being at Dawn's memorial service, 2 Saturdays ago. Even hubs cried as he sat beside me, chanting along. Many times I had to stop & compose myself so that I could offer daimoku to her. Eulogies given by her close friends revealed the Dawn I didn't get to know. How she offered a friend, suffering from severe burnout & depression, to stay with her while he took a break from the hectic life in Sydney. Knowing that he had estranged relationships with his family, she arranged in secret, for his family members to show up at the restaurant where she was celebrating his birthday for him. How, even in her late 60s, she went to Lady Gaga's concert & danced with the youngsters. 1 member who's known her for 16 years thanked her for being such a good friend, to which she replied, "I'm sure we'll meet again."
I'm terrible in my knowledge of the Gosho. But I know there is this passage where Nichiren wrote to his disciples, saying that they'll meet again at the Eagle's Peak, where Shakyamuni is. (Eagle's Peak is a figurative peak of the tallest mountain, where they can overlook the entire world.) In my heart, I imagine Dawn being at Eagle's Peak, discussing Buddhist philosophies with the Buddhas & sages who had departed prior. So long for now, Dawn. Some day, we will meet & we will discuss Buddhist philosophies once again.
Saturday, 28 May 2016
It's been a crazy, crazy fortnight. My work hours are over the roof. I clocked the most number of hours worked in a fortnight in my 2 years here. That's despite missing work last Friday as I had to fly off to Sydney for a work related conference. I got back on Sunday night & it was bang on again the very next day. My manager was away & I had to cover her duties as well. The 1 day that I finished early, was last Wednesday.
Following the news of her deterioration, I tried to contact her to visit her at home but I couldn't reach her. Shortly after, I was informed that she was found to be confused by a friend who visited her & she was sent to the hospital. In just a few days, she deteriorated further & was in & out of consciousness. I knew it was my last chance to see her. After finishing work at 4 pm last Wednesday, I drove to Glengerry Hospital where she was warded in the palliative ward. She had already slipped into a coma. I read her a quote from President Ikeda & held her hand the entire time I was there. Her close friend who intended to stay the night told me that she had a very aggressive type of cancer. As it was over a major vein, the portal vein in the liver, it was inoperable as a tiny nick will cause her to die from massive blood loss. I stayed for 3 hours & left at 7.30 pm. When I got home, I continue to send reiki distantly. I was very upset. She didn't look good at all. All along, I continued to hold hopes that she will overcome it. But seeing her in person, I knew it wouldn't be long.
I worked till 8.30 pm on Thursday & flew off to Sydney on Friday. My return flight was delayed due to busted brakes & I only got back to Perth at 11 pm. It was full on again from Monday with late finishes the entire week. I was telling hubs that I would like to visit her today, Sat. Then, I checked my email. The email informing us of her departure came on Thursday afternoon. Instead of visiting her at the hospital, I'll be attending her memorial service. I laid in bed & cried till I fell asleep. I only woke up becoz Ton woke me up, wanting to pee at 1.20 am. I haven't been able to go back to sleep since.
I don't know what to say. Just feeling overwhelmed from the loss of a dear friend.